Its been a while since i last blogged... Always wanted to... but lazy to. Haha, but since i will MIA for some time due to two camps , one after another , i decide to jot down what went through my mind these few days...
Been going out practically daily... with jingxiang , it will be shopping time! However hanging out with wei jie they all can be quite fun too. Badminton followed up by a good meal then off to LanLab we go. Dinner with them is good too... and it always seems to drag... don't you all wish time just stop moving some times?
Ok... thats what i have been doing recently... but what i really want to blog is what i have been thinking alot about recently... In the past ... i used to make fun and think less of people that I deem as ugly. However , something is bugging me recently... First of all , don't they all have a face , a body and a soul like i do? So what even if i think they are ugly? For all you know , i might be the most horrible looking freak to them.
Not only that ... i keep poking fun at them... but at the end of the day , what do i get? I get worried , I am afraid that some one exactly like me would laugh at me , saying I am ugly some day. Won't i feel unhappy and inferior too?
So what even if i think they are ugly? Look beside them , those big fat dinosaurs that we always at in orchard always seem to have the pretty lass / prince charming with them. And who do i have beside me? My buddies who only have me beside them. They have a decent partner and yet we don't. Isn't it a fact that we are inferior? Their appearance may look awkward , but i believe they are definitely nicer than we are. If not , why do they have the pretty guys and girls whereas we get shit?
If we really are not even comparable with those people we deem as ugly freaks, shouldn't we feel guilty at mocking at them , ashamed of ourselves? At least they have some one to hear them out , cares about them , loves them , be with them. We , at least I , don't.
We always tell others to leave us alone... but do we really love being alone? Have you ever walked through orchard road alone? Do you feel a sense of loss and loneliness? I do. I am sick of being alone. Don't even talk about friends. There are things that friends can and will not do for you. They can walk with you down the road... but there is no point if you still feel left out because they already have their other half. If you have your other half , then the voidness will be filled.
Do you feel alone? I do :)
posted at [11:37 PM]
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