But soon , he realised that its time to do something .... he did not want to carry on like that forever .... he decided to go on a holiday for a year or so until he could go ns ... so after saying good byes to his friends and family , he went on a holiday to new zealand ...
When he first reached new zealand , he had a lot of fun for the first few months but soon he realised that was running out of things to do .... Then , he decided to find a job ...he reached a farm and saw an old couple one day while find ing a job ... the old couple had a big farm but they were running it by themselves ... boy , feeling so bad because while this old couple is toiling away , he was having fun and enjoying himself ... because he is still has money to last him a few years , he decided to help out this couple for free....
When he first started , he found it hard to wake up at 5 in the morning to milk the cows .... after milking the cows , he had to bring the cows to eat at the grassland , next ,he had to clean the barn while the cows were feeding ... after cleaning the barn , he had to bring them back to the barn and scrub them ... mean while , the old man was attending to the lambs and the old woman was doing house work and cooking for the both of them....
Soon , boy realised that there was something wierd about the old . The wool and milk collected was not all sold away .... most of them were being brought to the market by the old woman and given out to the poor children and their family who drank the milk and use the wool to keep warm in the cold ...Every week , 3 well dressed men driving expensive cars would park outside the house and go in for dinner together ....
Being curious , he went to the market and asked one of the children why was the old couple behaving so wierd ....
The child replied ' All the poor people in our village depend on the milk for food and the wool to kept ourself warm and buy other things needed for our survival , they are the saviours of the poor in our town ... Those men are actually the sons of the old couple and they have grown up to be very rich men .. but thats all i know ...'
Suprised , he went back to the farm and questioned the couple and realised that the couple is actually very rich and had no need for money ... there fore ,they donated the milk and wool away ... their sons have grown up in the farm and learnt how to be hard working and thats why now they are earning big bucks and calling the shots at their company .... the family gathers for a dinner every week and their sons give them money ...
The old man was now touched by how kind and helpful boy had been ... he also realised that boy has also become hardworking ... boy thought the old couple was very nice and he wanted to continue to help them .... but old man denied his request because he wanted boy to chase after his dreams ... he also gave boy a sum of money to help him...
Touched , boy worked very hard and become the boss of a big company ... but he never forgot the old man and paid back his money and went back together with their sons for dinner every week ... but happy things did not last long ... the old couple passed away in 3 years .... boy was sad but he knew it was coming sooner or later .... In order to help the old man continue his wish , he found a few men in the town who has been helped by the old couple when they were young to continue to run the farm and help the poor ....
After a 5 years in new zealand , boy realised that he had to go home to visit his friends and family ....he had alot of joy and fun as he saw alot of them making their mark in life ... however , while working hard for the sake of the old couple , he temporary placed girl and En out of his mind ...... while he was driving to the airport to head back to new zealand , he saw girl and a boy behaving intimately ... distracted , he hit into a bus and got into coma ....
Both girl and En saw boy on the news and went to the hospital to visit him .... but girl reached first and placed her hand on boy's hand ... boy sensing girl's presence began to awaken... actually , both girl and En has not forgot boy ... girl realised that she loved boy and En finally realised how much boy loved her after he went to new zealand ... upon opening his eyes , he saw girl .... they looked at each other for a long time and girl broke the silence first ...
Girl asked how boy was ... boy replied , fine , how about you ? and their conversation carried on to how their lives had been all this while .... girl had actually been working in malaysia .... Meanwhile, En was outside the door listening to their conversation ... she had been working hard , now owning a business of her own after her studies in England .....
Then , boy realised that there was something that he had to say before he misses the chance again ....
' I love you' boy said with the most serious tone
'I love you just as much' girl replied...
En heard this and went off running in her wedding gown ... she was expected to get married that day but when she saw the news , she ran from the wedding because she could not decide if she liked her husband to be or boy .... now , she had no choice ...
And so , the story ends ... what will happen in the future , i do not know ..... there may be a part 2 and if there is , i sure will post it here... hope you enjoyed it
posted at [6:08 PM]
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Because his heart was killed by these two girls , he had no way out but to distract himself by putting more effort into his school work .... exams just came and went ... Because he worked hard , he managed to get into his next level of education and take his O levels .... but while waiting for his results , he had nothing to do so he kept thinking of girl and En ... Both girls were still unaware of his feelings and thought he had really forgotten the both of them and they went on with their live as usual .... girl left her home because she quarelled with her parents .... girl went on to ITE and no news was heard ever after ... others said she got married with her boyfriend and lived happily ever after while some said she left the country to go pursue her dreams with her aunty and uncle supporting her .... it was rumoured that she became rich in another country... but no one knows what really happened to her ....
En went on to pursue her studies overseas .... Boy was both happy and sad ... happy because both of them have made their mark in life ... sad because both of them had left him .... alone .. he regretted that he never told both of them that he loved them .... he regretted that he did not treat them better before they left , he regretted that he did not work hard enough to be as capable as them ....
He could not concentrate for his O levels and even when taking the exams , he was thinking of the both of them .... after the exams were over , even before he knew his results , he knew he was going to fail ... Even when there was exams the next day , he could not bring himself to study because even if he opened the book right in front of him for a few hours , all he could see on the books was the names and faces of girl and En .... he never went to sleep ... he cried until that he was so exhausted that he fell to sleep , crying .... he would be thinking of them every moment he had time to think ..... As expected , he failed his O levels , he felt sad ..... not because he failed but because if after a year has passed and his feelings has not yet changed for the both of them , he wondered how could he ever forget them and if he could never forget them , it means he will be sad his entire life ....
To be continued
posted at [8:21 PM]
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But , deep down inside his heart , he still loved girl but when he sees En (the girl who he use to hate ) , his heart would pump so fast that it might burst out any moment . When he sees girl , he is at a loss of words , when he sees En , he is so excited that he cant even speak a sentence correctly ... After his exams , he tossed around in his bed , thinking , what did he really want ? Girl or En ? After a few hours of tossing around in bed , hitting his fist on the wall , drinking Coke like crazy , he finally knew what the problem was ..... he was in love with girl but he liked En...
To him , the words " Like" and " Love" meant the same thing to him , both Girl and En were so close yet so far to him ...... He seldoms see Girl but he talks to her through other means . He always see and is around En but he never talks to her ...
Many people was curious about who he liked but he was afraid and refused to say it to any one .... One day , he could take it no longer and decided to tell two friends who he think he could trust ....However , one of them betrayed his trust and he was forced into telling a lie to make other believe that he liked some one that he did not like ... After that incident , boy knows that no one can be trusted and he should keep things to himself no matter how hard it is ... He also knew that he had to make a choice between the two of them ... Because , to him , liking 2 person at a time is unacceptable and he knew that it is wrong ... therefore , he made a choice to chase neither of them or any other girl until he had made up his choice ... however , he already realised that both En and girl likes some one else, at least that was what he thought.... So he avoided both of them , but the problem is that when he tried to do that , he fell deeper in love with both of them ...
This led to anger within him .... an anger that was slowly building up within him... an anger not at anyone else but himself... When no one was around , he cried alone , in his room , when every one else is asleep ... He had no one to turn to , no friends he could trust in his class , friend that were really concerned about him were too busy with their work and he felt bad to trouble his friends... However something good is going to happen to him except that it has nothing much to do with relationships
To be continued
posted at [10:18 PM]
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Haiz.... i lost my temper again ... why cant those assholes just leave me alone ... All i wanted was to sleep cos D&t make me very tired le ... at home i also never sleep enough ... so trying to catch some sleep when no teacher is around but i guess those assholes just dont seem to understand ... if i ever irritate someone , its always to person who makes me first , perhaps not on that day , maybe its the day before or the the day before yesterday perhaps even months or years ago ... im not petty but whenever i think of how you treated me in the past , i cant stop the feeling of getting back at you ... still fuming inside me after 7 hrs ... today oral a bit hard lar ... but i still can pass ....
Anyway , out of boredom ,i decided to add a story to my blog , its a story that i found on a gamefaq forum and everthing is added by the people who visit ... its a locked and secret forum though... so no access to people who are new to gamefaqs ... its about a guy and his story
As always , boy meet girl , boy talks to the girl on irc ... within a few hours , he got her msn ... Boy adds girl and they began chatting happily , little do the both of them know that their lives would change for the future .... After a few days of morning to night talking on MSN , boy fell in love with girl and asked her to be his stead ..girl agreed and things all fell into place ... Being his first relationship , boy felt awkard to girl ... he blocked her on msn for a few days because he is so shy to talk to girl ... after encouragement by a few friends , boy finally picked up the courage to speak to girl
He missed her alot and kept talking to her ... however .... he kept their relationship a secret ... for he was afraid
he was very afraid things will change ... because he loved her too much to want anything to change but soon , the wonderful and happy dream popped ... everything turned into hell for boy ... exams were coming and he was most likely unable to pass ..
friends found out that little secret which was very important to him , it was his blood , his life , every one made fun of the girl he loved in his face but he could not do any thing because he is outnumbered ...in order to stop the mocking , he said he never loved her at all ... perhaps it was his biggest mistake in his life .... he was collapsing , with only her being his pillar in him ..... but girl did not trust boy and believed what others said ..... thats when his only pillar fell to pieces ... so with the pillar being taken away from him , he fell to pieces ... while trying to build himself up , others did not help and kept stepping down on him , making him rebuild himself slowly .. and there was this girl who he has hated all along since a few years back ... he thought that she hated him too but he was falling in love with her and he couldnt stop ... love is unstoppable and unexplainable with word....and thus , with this new strenght rising from with him , he began to rebuild himself faster ... but things were different.... Little did he know that a string of tragedys would happen on him ...
posted at [6:33 PM]
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Hm... long time no update le .... d&t rushing like crazy ... holidays 3rd and 4th week every day 9-6 , school first week and this week after school until 9 ... except this thurs ,fri and sat .... until7.30pm ... very tiring sia... no time to rest ... no time to think about things ....tml everything is gonna end ...and i will start a a new phase of rushing .... folio work rush.... now project work is gonna end ... many things that i have not thought about during this period came all back all right in my mind this night ... do i enjoy not thinking about some issues because i dont like them or am i happy because i have not thought of something that will make me happy yet wondering all the time ....i know this particular post is bit of a mess but... i am just typing whatever that goes through my brain right now...
I am trying to forget her by putting all my energy and my time into D&t but now i have more time ... everything about her seems to come back to me at the same time ... it hurts .. really...
About 2 years have passed .... the things , people , feelings around me and in me have changed .... sometimes i wonder change is good ... people keep telling me that i should into the future instead of thinking of the past ...but i wonder , is change really that good ? Do i really want change ? Do i need to change ? A part of me says yes ... i should learn to be more mature and understand that things and people will keep changing ... while another part of me says that i want everything to be as before and i will do anything to keep things the way they were before... but why should i change even though others are changing? some people just don't deserve that tiny bit of respect from me ... why should i restrain from injuring , insulting and irritating people when they don't even deserve me to treat them as a human but the more humane side of me tells me that if i treat others well , others will treat me as well ..... but currently it doesnt appear so ... if i treat others well , they just try to bully and take advantage of me ... the people around me are all like this except for a special few... remember , i may smile at you and treat you nicely but you will never know how much i dislike you until its too late ...
I dont really hate any one , i cant bear to do so ... but whatever pain you have inflicted on me ... i find it hard to forget pain ...i can forgive but never forget ... if theres only one thing i cant forget , its grudges. Besides what you may think as a joke could be and most likely is an insult that hurts others ... I talked less than usual recently because i realised that words are the most dangerous weapons ever created ... if i ever insult you in a moment of anger , im sorry .. but if i ever insult you because you make me unhappy first ,F*** YOU!
posted at [9:37 PM]
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