Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Long time no update le.... i have to go .. i have to do sth soon ... any way ... perhaps i will update one day but not much le... since this is dieing...
posted at [7:40 PM]
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Saturday, September 25, 2004
Very early sat. morning ... its a miracle i woke up so early .... but yesterday ... fri ... i slept at 5pm ... so i slept like 14 hours ... didnt even take dinner .. 3 dreams in a sleep ... not all are pleasant ... now cannot remember the other 2 le... cos they are not very scary .... the only 1 i remember is regarding her.... but nvm about that ... not the time to think about such things le ..
Today .. hope i can go play basketball ... play already then come back rest ... sun chiong h/w then mon go school ... 1 more week ... till my n levels come ... i dun wanna just pass ... its really the time to start studying ...
Nowadays cut down on speaking vulgar le.... as much as possible ... cos since some one hates that so much .... hiaz .... stomach grumbling ... need to eat le ... perhaps i will post again later..
posted at [7:38 AM]
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Tuesday, September 21, 2004
16 years of my life... i have been searching ... what do i want .... who do i need ... what should i do ...but recently ...i finally decided that enuff is enuff le.... gonna strive hard to acheive good results ... gonna train hard to be good in basketball ... gonna do my best to win her heart ... before today ... i thought that whatever i do ... i will be hurt in a way or another .... i used to think ... as long as i remain inactive .. i dont do a thing ... nothing is gonna harm me... but im all so wrong ... i need to do something ... u wanna look down on me cos my results arent good ? well that is gonna be all over ... im GONNA OWN U ! u think u can pick on me cos of my small size ? thats all over as well... even though i will be hurt in the proccess ... i will stop the crap ... u think i can never play basketball well ? one day im gonna thrash u....
today my friend is correct ... for once i really feel im the wrong ... why care about other ppl feeligns when they dont care about other ppl feelings too... why should i stop doing what i like , stop talking to some ppl just to fit in .... the past 2 years is the worst ... its not any one's fault ... its just my way of thinking was wrong ... i will do what i enjoy doing ... even though it may be childish , lame or stupid in all of ur eyes ... because if u cant accept me as ur friend as who i am ... then u are not my friend..
I WILL BE FREE !~!
posted at [8:14 PM]
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Monday, September 20, 2004
Long time no update le... cos nowadays ... well.... i need to sort of my thoughts and have a time where i will be undisturbed to make a post that will be actually readable..
today ar... go school ... put a little more effort in studying ... then go play basketball... enjoyable today .... but a bit tired .... i bet alot of ppl no longer visit this blog le .. cos its so dead... but .. well its my blog ....
despite having this blog ... i still have a diary that i actually write on... for more personal things and more complexed thoughts .... so if u guys ever chance upon it ... pls do not open it ....
friendship .... is some thing that cannot be traded ..
posted at [9:32 PM]
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Friday, September 10, 2004
Phew.... now i finally have time ... time to think , time to reflect... things are going too fast , too furious for me .... many things have changed , and many things have started... i am still me , u guys are still who u are ... but the feeling between us have changed ... Perhaps its your fault , perhaps its mine ... but i do not want to know ... because it will change nothing ... perhaps it may not be obvious now , but one day , it will show .....
Thats about it for the bad things ... i do realise now that friendship is some thing that is not always worth hanging on and worth being loyal to , ur best friend may betray u at any time , ur good friends may stop befriending u , ur buddy may kill u... perhaps not always , but it will happen 1 day , its just the matter of time .... no friendship is everylasting , no matter how u try to maintain it ... the best thing to do is to make friends and at the peak of ur friendship , stop being friends , hang out less often ... at least that way , both of u will have good memories...
These few days , i have made a new friends ... perhaps they will affect my life but even so , i doubt the effect will be big... because ... friendship has betrayed me and i no longer seek friendship... if they are able to change my view about friends ... well... then good
I am getting more and more tired ... physically and mentally ... my body is wounded and tired , my mind is swirling and swirling , i just cant think any more ...
On top of that ... my feelings for that some one will is not changing .... i do not wish for any thing except being just friends ... because of the fact that we can never be together ....i have given up on the word " Love" which every one is trying so hard to pursue... until the day i feel hope again... its not impossible at all because im getting a feeling that something will happen , for the better or worst , i do not know... my mind is being cut into 4 peices now , i cant think , i cant decide...
Btw... i will make the next post when i finally can think again...
posted at [8:04 PM]
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Thursday, September 02, 2004
Tues .... i experience so much fun that words cannot describe ... i really enjoyed it.... but besides that ... for the first time ... this is a short one ..... im not really in a good mood to write much..
posted at [7:47 PM]
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