Saturday, January 28, 2006
Steam boat today!!! My sister got pissed with some things me and my elder sis said. Sometimes she just doesnt think on the same wavelenght as both of us. Guess the second child is always born... different.
But hell , it still was fun :p
While waiting for my sis to get back.. IM STARVING
I like this pic best :p
posted at [10:06 PM]
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Thursday, January 26, 2006
Hell yeah , I'm back on field, playing the game again. Think you were lucky when i was missing in action? I am back ,rearmed and reloaded. Your nightmare just begins here.
True , i went through one of the darkest part of my life recently , but heck? WHO THE FUCK CARES?? Heh, I am just going to kick all your butts when i get the chance. So what even if become back to who i am really were? All crude , sadistic and totally radical.
Theres no holding back. I thought about what happen recently , why bother holding back in the first place ? If it was meant to happen , all you can do is delay it. Won't you feel even more upset when it ends after you put in so much effort?
Life is selfish. Rather , many people make this world a selfish world to live in. The fellow rats consume each other. Fellow men backstab each other for their own good. The world is in such a mess. So in such a chaotic world like our own , theres no fucking point in trying to be a nice guy. Wanna know why? Because GOOD GUYS ALWAYS LOSE. All along in history , the one who gains the victory is the hero. One who won a war can always write history his way. So whats the fucking point of behing a nice guy and then LOSING?? Dont. Be. A. Loser.
posted at [5:58 PM]
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Saturday, January 14, 2006
I think no one ever views this blog ever again so im gonna make it totally personal. More like a diary le bah..
Hm... today just installed air con. So cool eh? Im gonna sleep in the aircon later. Its been ages...
It feels so different... cold , enclosed ,dark and lonely. Depicts my exact feelings right now.
Life is back to normal except those lonely nights that i spend crying away. That is just the night though , when no one sees me. When the sun rises again , im back on my feet , fighting the endless battles of life with that smile and laughter of mine. My heart crys but my face smiles , im a hypocrite.
posted at [11:09 PM]
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Thursday, January 05, 2006
Updated.
Thank you. That was 5696634 seconds. It started at 12.00.10am. Now , it all ended. For the good or bad , i don't know. You say that its for our good. You say. You think. There was really no me this time round? For the most important one time, i was not included. How great eh?
Yeah , im soooo totally happy.
This blog is gone. Just as gone as i will be.All of you. Delete this blog from your bookmarks. It is all of the past. All gone.
I kept my promise.There will no longer be a trace of what is me this few months anymore. I'll just turn back. Turn back into who i was. Only more convinced .Goodbye. Thanks for filling up that gap in my heart and take smashing it bigger again. I learnt my lesson the hard way.
posted at [10:28 PM]
For once i thought ' Hey , she'll understand. I suppose i could be free on sun.' I'm totally wrong. I didn't know that you are sick of it. Are you really tired of it? Are you once again influenced by others? Do you no longer trust me? If so , leave me again and I'll wait once again.
Doesn't matter. You hurt me enough for me call myself heartless. You think i don't care? Then i wouldn't be losing sleep. Its about 7am and if you really do know me , know that i don't wake up this early unless I'm losing sleep. You think everything is easy for me. No its not. It really is not. But never mind. If it makes you feel better thinking that way , go ahead. I don't blame you.
You think i am just finding excuses not spend time with you. Go ahead. If your understanding and trust of me is that shallow, so be it.
If you are really tired of me , tired of my absence, then go find some one else who fulfills your needs. I am serious.I don't like being threatened.I don't like people interfering with I planned.I am not a Mr. nice guy. Not all the time.
I am who i am. I may give to you , but i can never change my life for you. Not because i don't want to , but i lack the ability to do so. Seriously, there are things that i tell myself that i will do for you,but very often, i never end up doing them because somethings you do , somethings you say , simply kills my mood and my passion.
Heres a tip for all girls out there. If you truely love a guy and want to be with him , first of all , you need to learn not to hold him back.
posted at [6:56 AM]
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