Its been a while since i blogged, I don't know where to start, what to say. But i need an outlet.
Life's been driving me crazy. I am not the same anymore. I don't know the real meaning of joy anymore. Reality has hit home. I need to start focusing on the future.
BGR-wise, im glad everything came to an end. Some things just have to be cut off. You can't leave strands hanging, some how, they'll always come back to haunt you. I know i hate the fact that you lied to me so many times, but at least i know today, irregardless of everything , i've learnt to walk alone.
All along, i was searching for some one to hold my hand , to guide me along this troubled path i took. You kept assuring me you were the one, but every now and then, you took a dagger and stabbed it into my heart, i held on. For i believed that maybe , some day things will be back the to same. Its ok being friends. But after a while , when the truth is all out, i know , i have to leave. Before i lose myself.
And i shall slowly update those who might one day come across this.
I am now a fitness specialist trainee in pasir laba camp. Pretty hell hole of a course if you ask me, you need to attend draggy lessons, attend and conduct mock PT lessons and still meet up to the physical training and tests. Pretty bad for a bad runner like me. Learning how to endure and excel has indeed become an important part of my life. I don't know where to go, with so many doors open to me. I'm still looking for the right door and the right person to walk with me through it.
posted at [6:47 PM]
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