Long time no update le... today i played the first soccer match in my life ... LOL i pratically screwed up everything ... but there was this fucking malay gay in my class who kept saying how bad i was ... well .. F him .. he think his skill so good meh... like shit liddat .... he also everytime hao lian but in the end he seldom get good grades ... this kind of ppl is then really what i call piece of shit ... worse than those pai kia...
But then i'm starting to regret on something i never got to do ...there was something i wanted to do .. but then i never did because i thought i would never succeed ....but then now , whenever i think of it ... i feel so regretful... i let an chance slip pass me so easily because i was hesistant ... all because i was afraid to lose face.... but now when i finally found the courage to want to do it , its too late ... i dont have a chance now...
Hiaz.... i doubt i will have time to post in june ... im gonna go and do alot of things i always wanted to do yet have not yet done ... because i dont want to lose a chance to do something i want when i still have a chance ... the feeling is so painful... i don't want to look back into my teenage years 30 years from now and say ' Wtf was i doing in sec. school , i never had any fun , never had any work done , never had good relationships'
Perhaps i may just give up half way on what i have set out to do but i keep telling myself that i should do whatever i can and have no regrets...As for basketball , it just keeps getting more and more fun because im getting the hang of it nowadays ... not good enough to be considered good but at least good enough for me to enjoy every moment of it...
Besides i doubt many ppl will read this ... cos i have only told few ppl about it ... so to the people reading this ... im sorry that most of this is crap and is just me ranting on about how sucky my life is
posted at [8:31 PM]
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Yeah !!! Exams finally over liao... fri, sat , sun , mon all holiday :) Very nice ... but then sometimes it makes me wonder... exams over liao but do what ? Go out ? No $$$ i wanna save for holidays when i can gorge myself to death and look like a pig without worries of my friends seeing me :p Go play basketball ? Injuries alot .. need to recuperate first... Sleep ? the more i sleep the more tired i get .. Play games ? Nowadays got what games can play... in order to play a decent game on my computer i would need a dammed expensive graphics card..
I think for this few days i just stay home relax lar... think about my future , think about how to save up more money... think about alot of other things...
D&T sucks lar... every day must do do do ... i no time do ar !!! Then Augustine say he wanna drop the subject impossible 1 lor ...
I think i just post until here lar the finger tip of my one of finger injured and bleeding .. type things with that finger very painful lar
posted at [8:57 PM]
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Just woke up ... wanted to sleep longer but i my favourite cartoon is gonna show soon at 11am ... tired leh... fri go out then i 2am then sleep ... then next day 6+ wake up liao ... go swimming and exercise ... then after swimming , got tuiton... after tuiton must travel to bugis to eat with my sisters and mum and auntie and cousin lor ... the food quite nice lar ... but i really really very tired ...i reach home then lie on bed immediately sleep liao... no mood to do anything except sleep now ... tml got chinese exam.. sure die sia ... so tired how to concentrate ... sure sleep through the exams 1 ... hiaz... now got One Piece showing liao so i go watch liao.. might be adding another longer post later ..
posted at [10:53 AM]
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Today is such a nice day ... first of all i managed to get down to study ... but then later chat a few hours with debbie , jin le and enning . Talk about a lot of things lor then 10pm go home ... from 12 go until ten.. at least i got some work done at debbie house... tml schedule also booked up liao... morning gym and swimming , afternoon cycling and basketball then after tuition then at night go out with my mum and 2 sis but then... i cant afford to pay for the dinner ... never work part time mah... if only i got an atm card... i would surely help pay too... haiz ... having no money on you is so bad ... this is year is dammed sick... i now expierence what you mean by no money ar.... haiz... so i recently decided that i must earn alot of money in the future .... so thats why im trying to study nowadays .. but , im not a person who can study well ...
just like a person who cant seem to work very hard .. but now i bet with a lot of ppl i will do better than them in o levels ...
So now is bo bian lor must die die work hard ... for myself and for those bets ... hehehe.. think i can never win you guys ? its just that i find it hard for me to find a good challenger ... a good challenger to me is not some one who can study like siao and get very high marks ... a challenger to me is some one who is not obsessed with studying and has the right attitude to every thing lor .. in short a role model lor ... i used to have 1 bah .. in primary school but now .. the people i see around me are just so common , nothing much special in particular ... but i spotted some one with the qualities that i look up to and now i want to outdo that person ... but of course .... I MuSt havE fUn :p
Relationships ... wtf are they ... real love ? To me its a piece of burden bah ... until im sure that i can care for the person in the future and be always there for her ... i will not search for the thing called ' Love ' where it just like a mirage to the ppl around our age ... you think you see it but once you put your hand out and tries to touch it , it disappears into thin air and making you disappointed and sad ... i rather wait till i see something that is real and then i put all my efforts into reaching for it...
Love at first sight ? impossible lar ... its more important to have a person with character ... even though its true that i would notice the good looking ppl first lor ... but even though looks are important , to me its only the first test ... the major one is the attitude and character ... even if im sure that i like that person really really much that i would do anything for her , i would not put my hand out to try to reach for her ... i refuse to let myself get hurt willingly ...
So in short , once i get my studies and friends in place , i would then correct my attitude ... then only i feel myself good enuff for anygirl....
posted at [11:04 PM]
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