All alone in my design studio now. I mean who the hell would come so early besides me. I know theres stuff to be completed but i am simply just lazing around at times... Oh well..
Any way , im kinda enjoying my poly life. Busy indeed but at times , its much better than secondary school. Here , i am given much freedom but it all comes with a heavy price tag. The price tag that may be insignificant to some yet at the same time could be too expensive for some to bear. The loss of free time and sleep. Projects , club meetings , social outings have been taking up at least 16 hours of my average day. However , i know , its just the starting of 3 years . Lets just hope i can get used to this pretty fast.
Pc is down , not like it really mattered alot though , i simply don't even have time to use to the computer for long msn chats anyway , let alone play games. Hopefully , it gets fixed by today.
Life's a mystery. There are stuff that i took 4 months and still can't get over. Yet, i can easily forget many of the happy times i had during my break. Or could it simply be that there was really no happy times during my holiday? I suppose so. What is sweet could turn sour eventually if not kept well. Not alone applies to food but to relationships and memories as well.
I keep getting asked. What's holding me back? I don't really know too. Perhaps it could simply be that i still can put down whats left and gone. It could also be that I am a coward to face up to expectations. As i said , i really don't understand where all of this is heading. I don't get a single clue, i am playing the game with lots of sneaky competitors. I am sick of it. Perhaps i just forget it all and once again lead the life of a vagrant. I see no point in holding on to things that does not what to be held on. It's time to just let go i suppose.
Hm... its getting cold in here , no ones really around me anyway. Better go seek my solace from the cold world. The 50 cent hot milo at the vending is all that is still warm.
posted at [9:09 AM]
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