Monday, February 13, 2006
Thanks to the people who shared my point of view. Its heartening to see such support. Anyway , just a brief update on whats up these few days for me..
On saturday.. i went to the Army Seminar. After thinking through a few issues , i decided to sign on. I know most people would advise me against it. However, there are good reasons that i would choose not to disclose so openly for certain reasons. I know , i won't regret it. After the talk , i met up with Jing Xiang to go out have fun. Went to Cineleisure to watch Fun with Dick and Jane. Pretty decent show. After which we went to play pool at Paradiz Centre. There was huge proccession going on in that area.I decided to poke an Indian with my index finger. He turned around and said ' Whatsup Brother?' Ok , im kidding about that part.. I merely asked him what is going on. Thaipusam or something it turned out to be. I couldn't really bothered with the details though... So we headed on to play pool.On our way back , an ugly bitch asked us for our number... I felt like i was robbed of my number due the the way they approached us. Heck , didnt bother to message back.
On Sunday morning , i listened to Fa Ru Xue then i suddenly was in a down mood. Decided to switch to Shan Hu Hai... that was it... i suddenly felt so... unhappy. I was desperately trying to get people to go out with me. In the end , i managed to get one of my best friends to go eat Suki Sushi and go Kbox with me. Those are the two outlets where i go to cool down... At kbox , i kept selecting Fa Ru Xue and Shan Hu Hai. Lol , sorry lar laine. Then after that we chatted for a while under her block ... about the future and stuff.
As i headed to the bus stop directed by Elaine back home... i started to feel uneasy. I asked myself .. was that it ? Is that the place? I decided to sit down afterall. Suddenly , it just came back to me. Exactly half a year ago , i was on the same bus stop. It was recorded in one of my earlier posts... I decided to just walk back home. On my way back , i thought through alot of things... Why should i always live in my own past? Why can't i just move on? Is it because I simply can't learn to let go? I did make one firm decision that walk back home. Life goes on and i must move on to keep up with life.
Tommorrow Is Valentine's Day but i will still be probably at the dirty warehouse slogging my guts out. Once again, 18th Valentine's Day Spent with me and myself. Sometimes ... i just feel that , perhaps , I am destined to walk my way of life alone. I guess its just because people cant keep up.
Btw.. i never really meant what i said that time... I am sorry.To me , you are still beautiful.
posted at [8:35 PM]
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