Sunday, February 12, 2006
For me l1b4 i got 16 , l1r5 get 22. I know , its not all that good but at least .. i will be able to go on poly and choose most of the courses.... but after i look through the courses... there are nothing i have a strong interest in. I am stuck at a crossroad , every one is rushing , banging into me as they walk onto the path they chose... but im still there , getting hit by every one while standing at the crossroad.
That aside , im gonna say a few things about the teachers in kranji. To be honest , there was a period of time , i so demoralised that i decided to quit school. The exact cause of this is the teachers in kranji.For a god damned 5 years ... i have labeled a failure. Teachers all told me to drop their subject, others told me to quit school and go ITE. For 5 years... FOR FUCKING FIVE YEARS!! Thanks to those people who were there to supposedly guide me , to educate me , to nuture me. I said supposedly, if i really gave in to what they said , i would really be gone.
If teachers keep labeling me as an useless piece of shit,(Exactly qouted from one teacher), how will i ever really feel like some thing better? They are concerned for me? NO, they merely gave up on me because i was a lost cause. Was i really that useless or are they the culprits to make me who i was?
Now now , if any of those fucking teachers who condemned me , looked at my blog , look at this !! I scored better than many of your favoured students. Thanks to a friend of mine , i woke up in time. 2 weeks before the exam, he told me , 'You are what you believe you are'. It meant a lot from a close friends. So i studied. In 2 weeks, i can get this kind of grades , if only , i didnt get affected by the teachers and worked hard during my 5 years.. i would probably be the one getting the tops. Those people nearly ruined me. I didn't thank them. Why should i thank people that killed my soul , punished me , gave up hope on me and hoping to claim credit when i suceeded?
I am not an ingrate. I just felt that... if i had better teachers who would judge me for who i am and not what i do. If only i had teachers who would care how i really think. I tell you people out there. When i needed encouragement from people , what i got was condemnation. From the people who were there to educate me... I really really hate those people.
But i do appreciate people that stood by me. I really do, because without them , i probably would have given up hope long ago and quitted school. Some day , when i become influential ,i will bring this issue of lousy teachers up.They say teachers will treat every one the same , teach them equally. THATS A FUCKING LIE.
posted at [1:05 PM]
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