Thursday, January 05, 2006
For once i thought ' Hey , she'll understand. I suppose i could be free on sun.' I'm totally wrong. I didn't know that you are sick of it. Are you really tired of it? Are you once again influenced by others? Do you no longer trust me? If so , leave me again and I'll wait once again.
Doesn't matter. You hurt me enough for me call myself heartless. You think i don't care? Then i wouldn't be losing sleep. Its about 7am and if you really do know me , know that i don't wake up this early unless I'm losing sleep. You think everything is easy for me. No its not. It really is not. But never mind. If it makes you feel better thinking that way , go ahead. I don't blame you.
You think i am just finding excuses not spend time with you. Go ahead. If your understanding and trust of me is that shallow, so be it.
If you are really tired of me , tired of my absence, then go find some one else who fulfills your needs. I am serious.I don't like being threatened.I don't like people interfering with I planned.I am not a Mr. nice guy. Not all the time.
I am who i am. I may give to you , but i can never change my life for you. Not because i don't want to , but i lack the ability to do so. Seriously, there are things that i tell myself that i will do for you,but very often, i never end up doing them because somethings you do , somethings you say , simply kills my mood and my passion.
Heres a tip for all girls out there. If you truely love a guy and want to be with him , first of all , you need to learn not to hold him back.
posted at [6:56 AM]
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