Friday, December 30, 2005
Lets continue from the last post onwards.
I went to the arcade to play ghost squad. Sounds simple eh? Thats when things start to get bad after. Had pizza hut for dinner and the adults wanna go to the casino and the kids have to sleep. So i headed to starbucks to slack.
The venti cafe mocha latte was freaking big. Decided not to waste food for once , in the case beverage, i took a painful 2 hours to finish it. But it gave me a chance to gain insight.
Beside where i sit , theres this little river ride. In the middle of the ride , there are 3 bells placed together where you can strike them with coins. They are named , Health , Love and Wealth. They are placed in that manner , respectively too. I noticed a pattern among people too. During the 2 hours i sat there, i noticed that people always wanted wealth over health and health over love. The funny thing was that there was only 1 person who hit the love bell and it was a kid. Why is that between those 3 things , people always choose wealth and when they miss , they just keep throwing and throwing? Most people dont even give the love bell a heck. Is love really not that important?
I was so disheartened. But i suddenly noticed three kids beside me playing. They were playing 205.But instead of slaps and whacks , they replaced it with kissing and they are still equally happy , if not happier. I realised , when we played 205 , we are happy when we whack others. We derive happiness from some one's suffering. Why have we all become like that? The kids actually know how to be happy by making others happy. Are we 'adults' less mature than those children? They say ignorance and maturity never comes together. However , those little kids that we claim to be naive and ignorant are actually more mature than us in that sense. If only the world would to replace violence with love. It would be a better place to live in for sure. I no longer believe in' Violence is needed to bring about peace'. Thats a stupid idealogy that is popularised by the US and gundam.
Midnight was the highlight. After that mega big cup of coffee, i had to pee , badly. Bad mistake. I went into the toilet beside Burger king. I was washing my hands when this fucker came along.
He: Hi , how old are you?
Me: 17
He: Where are you from?
Me: Singapore
He: Oh , you have a girlfriend?
Me: (Ignores this personal question)
He: Had sex before?
Me: No.
He: Tried Oral sex before
Me: No.
He: Hey , whats the colour of your underwear?
Me: (Gives the WTF face.) Can't remember , gotta go
He: Show me lar...
Me: (Runs faster than lightning out of the toilet)
(Bumps into a crazy dude)
He:Hey, want a girl? Feel free to take a look , free 1.
Me:No.(Still shocked from just now)
He:Or you want to earn some money? Very easy one. You so yan dao.
Me: ( WTF is wrong with these ppl face)(Runs away)
(Goes to bumper car ride, waiting in queue)
(Girl walks up and sat beside me)
Me:(Looks decent. Better not look any more , later boyfriend which is not present whacks the fuck outta me)
She: Hey, you here alone?
Me: Yeah, my parents went gambling
She: Wanna go my room have some fun?
Me: Erm... Sorry .. No , im have to rush back to meet my parents.
She:( Gives the dissed off face and walks off)
( Had fucking enough shocks. 1am, walking back to resort hotel via shortest route which is totally deserted)
(Chao Ah lian walks up)
She: Want sex? 100 only. Got room
Me : (Ignores. Walked faster and faster till a certain point where i ran all the way back)
Notes to ppl going genting soon:
1)Don't go to public toilets unless totally needed at night.
2)You'll meet lots of friends of the same sex if you take rides alone.All of us in the same boat, abandoned by parents who are in the casino
3)You'll get lots of pretty girls to sit with you as long as you ask. ( It worked for me)
4) The food sucks.
5)NEVER EVER hang out after mid night especially alone.
6)NEVER EVER even go out alone if you are a girl.
posted at [12:51 AM]
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Right... so here i am , at genting. Im bored like fuck. The weather is cold , the food sucks and i dont have first class hotel. So im sianz 1/2. Lets recount all the way back from the 23rd.
23rd. Went to watch king kong with some one. After which i met up with boon and shermaine to play pool. Kinda sucks. Bad day , boring day. So i went to stay at boon house but suddenly remembered i had lots of stuff to do the next day. So i went back by 5am
24th. Met up with aaron and sririam. Wee , they are finally back in singapore and we finally get to meet up. We played abit of soccer , went to plaza singapura to eat and then headed to play pool. It was cool playing with them. Then around 5pm i met up with that special some one. Headed to eat at MOS burger. The food there is freaking small. But anyway, those guys left us and its only me and her. Headed down to esplanade watched the beautiful lights at the bay. We even took a little ride on the bum boat down the river. Had a bit of fun before heading back. I really enjoyed myself but...
25th
Woohoo, bbq with jing , vr , mojo , dean and zs! Elaine even came for a while to pay us a little visit. Had lots of fun shopping for the food and everything , its been ages since we last had such fun. So we ate and ate all the way till christmas was over.It was just a small bbq but it sure was fun. So , we went back to my room after clearing up the helluva lot of mess to play UNO- Hairy fucker edition. Haha , they went back in the early morning though.
26th , played DOTA with them again. Yes, i bummed out of the gym trip. Im one lazy pig but i sure look fitter than any one of you out there. :p jkjk , dont challenge me to anything that will prick my ego. After which , massive packing at home. Woo, the least things i packed for quite some time , just a small bag of clothes. So i left for genting at night. The coach was awesome. 20 seater with ample leg space. There were even a mini lcd flat screen tv that we can use to watch movies , mtvs and play games. I watched a few mtv and intial d and 1 dunno what movie. Lol. i even took a video and a few pics with my phone. Damn , i forgot the bring the digital cam.
But i didnt really sleep. Some one knows why and i wont bother explaining.
27th. Reached genting the early morning. Friggin' cold if ya ask me. Walked round and round waiting for the theme park to open. I finally got rid of my fear of heights i suppose. Had a little bit of rides , headed back to hotel room at 2pm to get some shut eye. woke up at 5 , went to eat pizza then took rides again. By 10, my family all wanted to sleep already. So i hanged on. Walked around aimlessly thinking about stuff till 1am. I swear i will never come to genting again. you see couples all around the place so happily taking the ferris wheel, river rides and huggling together in the cold. But what about me? Haiz... life for me is just never good when it comes to relationships. I just feel so cold. Not my physical shell but my soul.
28th. Woke up , ate macs and just hanged around , took a few rides and now i am here playing computer games and typing this uber long post , while waiting for her to be online. But it appears that ... nothing that has to do with relationships has gone right for me ever since i met her like 2 years ago.
Its long, i know , but i have nothing to do. No one to think of. No one to hold me.
On the bright side though , there are quite a few quality girls around. Lol , but i cant really go make friends. I already have enough troubles as it is.
posted at [1:11 PM]
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Thursday, December 22, 2005
Slept at 5 last night. Why? Photoshop TIME!! Lol , you heard my right , i decided to pick up photoshop once again. Warning huge load time. Forgive me k?
Tentacles. Look melvyn this is for ya. I will do tentacle porn to fulfill your fantasy some day... Yeah right ... you dream on.
My heart when you said, you dont feel a thing no more.
Drip drip drip, thats the sight on the floor when you pierced my heart.
Woohoo! , Lets go fly kite!
In commemoration of the tsunami.
THIS IS THE GRAND FINALE !!
Before
After.
posted at [1:42 PM]
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Friday, December 09, 2005
Its been a while. I don't seem to be around too much eh. It's because I got my hands full. Let me recap what i learnt since O levels ended.
First off , I realised ... i seldom placed myself in the some one else's position. Almost next to never. I always thought people that who cried , who are anguished , who are depressed , having sucidal thoughts because of not being with the people that they love are simply pussies. I am sorry , but i got rid of that mentality. Im sorry for at laughing, ridiculing , getting fed up and stuff at you all. It was because i never understood the pain you all felt. But now , i really do.
I always wondered why people should feel that way. It was because i took things for granted. I never thought my friends would eventually leave me, i would be constantly away from the people that had a place in my heart. True , all of you said ,' Lets keep in contact' but how many of you will really make the effort? True , you told me ' I will try my best to spend time with you' but can you reall afford to do so? The future looks pretty bleak.
Secondly , i learnt how you can learn to hate your job. I always thought a job was just a job , you wont exactly hate it anyway. Terrible mistake. Ever since i took up the job at minitoons , i realised that i didnt look forward to going to work , time passed so slowly. How i missed merchant court. At least it was interesting back there. Time flew by. I promised my self , i would never ever get another job that i would hate. If i dont like it , i will leave, dont stay for the sake of being scared others saying you CMI. Its better to eat humble pie rather than suffer a long period of time.
Last but not the least, i learnt how people change. Despite acting cool and everything when changes appear , deep thought , i always thought friends would always be friends , their friendship would never die so easily , they will be always who they are. But im wrong , all wrong. No matter how i try and try to make things like what they were before, its impossible. Even i have changed alot. From the cranky , happy go lucky me in lower sec , to the sec 3-4 me that was extremely skeptical and sinister. Eventually i became who i am now, some one who has been hurt , bruised but willing to take on the world again. I learnt many lessons the hard way. I may have become more shrewd, cunning , wary , cautious , alert and sensitive but now , i learnt how to really care for people. Because , i wanna be cared for.
posted at [11:08 AM]
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Friday, December 02, 2005
Oh great. A one week break. Might as well take up the offer. To really think through about the future. For the whole of last month , im pretty stressed up anyway. Lots and lots of stuff to think through. Where do i go after this, what do i do during the long holiday ,finish up all the stuff that i put off for months.
On top of all that , i have a duty to fulfill , a promise to keep that will like take away all my remaining time. God damn it , i dont even have time for maple story. I checked my Xfire program and it says : Maple Story , Played for less than 1 hour for the last week . This shows how deprived of games im suffering from.
Oh , not to mention the lack of sleep. I used to hand over the com to my sis at 9pm or so then watch some tv because getting myself to sleep to wake up 11am the next morning. Talk about a relaxed lifestyle. But it has all changed. Even my eyebags are getting bigger daily. Im vain. Duh...
My work starts tommorrow as well. Its part time but i work from 2pm- 10pm , not exactly part time right? Oh well. Things have changed greatly for me, no longer will life be that simple.I am leaving Kranji.I do have worries.Like i said before a fews posts before ,there are people and things i will miss.
We all grow and things change, we just have to grasp the harsh facts of reality. Probably just like anyone , im struggling in my teenage life. Oh , forget that nonchalant act i put in front of everyone else. I just seldom show my emotions to any one. It takes a real friend to really get through the skin of my life.
I guess , people not in my shoes will never understand me.But then again , who would successfully be able to put themselves in my shoes?
By the way , I didn't go with you because I'm really tired.I will think through about it,i really should i guess.
posted at [6:22 PM]
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Thursday, December 01, 2005
It was fun. Haha , but im really not into pictures so i have only have a few pictures. I think i still got a few with the other guys. Gotta wait till they are online. So these are the few that i got. Im starting to think. I really do miss school , i do miss every one. Is the end or a new beginning? What will the future hold for us? But oh well , might as well have fun during this 3 months. Lazy to blog. A picture is worth a thousand words. So i think I got more than 3000 words today.
Taken at the lobby.
Taken with Rishah. Lighting was pretty bad but it turned out alright.
Dude , stop shaking the camera. Lol , I never imagined that i would take a pic with siqi. Lol. Besides , this was one of the very few pictures that i was not in the background or caught with my eyes closed.
posted at [1:11 PM]
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