Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Life has never been so cool ... these few days seem so relaxed and enjoyable... but im still searching for my paradise and the one... i have been working harder than before ... not as good but still getting better already.
I wonder what i am going through recently ... some people say its hell , some people think its heaven ... to me , it just a road to heaven. Not heavenly yet but still close to that. Life has changed me so much ... from some one who regards friendship alot ... i learnt that friendship is everything ... you must learn to break away from friendships the moment you know they won't last. I also agree with what people say that primary school friends will be your closest friends. As people grow up , they think more complicated.
They are no longer easy satisfied by the many things that life has to offer ... i wonder why every one has become like this. I hope to have a friend who i can really trust in school but some times I am scared that i will get hit from all sides. I just hope that no one will come give me trouble any more. All i ask from those who i call friends and who call me friends to leave me alone , please , don't touch me or i will harm you. Yeah , I am paranoid ,scheming, crafty, sadistic, weak but ... who are you all to judge me ?
To those who don't believe i am trying to turn over a new leaf and think i am just plotting something... let me tell you a secret , im planning hire an assasin to take you out. Recently , i also becoming more extremist and my mood changes very fast. So get out of my life and leave me alone ,for it will be the best for all of us. Thank you.
To those who actually care , thanks for being there when i need it your help the most. I will remember your kindness.Once again, Thank You.
To those who claims to care and to be my friend but stabbed me in my back when i was going through this period of my life, fuck you. I mean it , fuck you. Whats your problem? You really think i am blind ? I just pretended to ignore it because i thought we could still be friends one day. But life has taught me , people like youall are not worth my time , no matter how worthless it may be. Get OUT OF MY LIFE. Thank You.
posted at [8:06 PM]
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