Im starting to stray from my resolutions for the year already ... damned ... slacking and sleeping is the easiest thing to do ever ... nothing can be compared to those 2 good activities ...
Starting to hate school ... nothing left that i desire in school ... there used to people that make me want to go school , look and them and say wow... nowadays , go school see alot of people will just go sian .... , hypocrites , little kiddos and many other not very flattering comments ... even the teachers that teach me also so sian... the only thing i look forward to is the pratical lessons , though chemistry 1 is much much better than physics even though i have no clue what is going on in chemistry classes...
The world is just getting more boring to me ... no thrill , no purpose but , suicide has never been on my mind ... recently some things happened to a friend of mine ...i don't even know whether i can call him friend or not ... w/e ... why must he attempt suicide when things are not going well? is the world really that bad ? i can't believe that i never treated life as something that is so fragile until now ... life could be ended so easily but it takes so long to grow and mature ... but when it finally grows up , it will be strong and pretty. Besides , we don't live in a world that belongs to others ... we have to create our own world so that every thing can be better , to us , the perfect world ... and one of the most important thing to achieve that would be looking at life from a different angle then it start to shape in your wishes... bad or good , you choose , no longer others.
posted at [11:12 PM]
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