Friday, September 10, 2004
Phew.... now i finally have time ... time to think , time to reflect... things are going too fast , too furious for me .... many things have changed , and many things have started... i am still me , u guys are still who u are ... but the feeling between us have changed ... Perhaps its your fault , perhaps its mine ... but i do not want to know ... because it will change nothing ... perhaps it may not be obvious now , but one day , it will show .....
Thats about it for the bad things ... i do realise now that friendship is some thing that is not always worth hanging on and worth being loyal to , ur best friend may betray u at any time , ur good friends may stop befriending u , ur buddy may kill u... perhaps not always , but it will happen 1 day , its just the matter of time .... no friendship is everylasting , no matter how u try to maintain it ... the best thing to do is to make friends and at the peak of ur friendship , stop being friends , hang out less often ... at least that way , both of u will have good memories...
These few days , i have made a new friends ... perhaps they will affect my life but even so , i doubt the effect will be big... because ... friendship has betrayed me and i no longer seek friendship... if they are able to change my view about friends ... well... then good
I am getting more and more tired ... physically and mentally ... my body is wounded and tired , my mind is swirling and swirling , i just cant think any more ...
On top of that ... my feelings for that some one will is not changing .... i do not wish for any thing except being just friends ... because of the fact that we can never be together ....i have given up on the word " Love" which every one is trying so hard to pursue... until the day i feel hope again... its not impossible at all because im getting a feeling that something will happen , for the better or worst , i do not know... my mind is being cut into 4 peices now , i cant think , i cant decide...
Btw... i will make the next post when i finally can think again...
posted at [8:04 PM]
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