But , deep down inside his heart , he still loved girl but when he sees En (the girl who he use to hate ) , his heart would pump so fast that it might burst out any moment . When he sees girl , he is at a loss of words , when he sees En , he is so excited that he cant even speak a sentence correctly ... After his exams , he tossed around in his bed , thinking , what did he really want ? Girl or En ? After a few hours of tossing around in bed , hitting his fist on the wall , drinking Coke like crazy , he finally knew what the problem was ..... he was in love with girl but he liked En...
To him , the words " Like" and " Love" meant the same thing to him , both Girl and En were so close yet so far to him ...... He seldoms see Girl but he talks to her through other means . He always see and is around En but he never talks to her ...
Many people was curious about who he liked but he was afraid and refused to say it to any one .... One day , he could take it no longer and decided to tell two friends who he think he could trust ....However , one of them betrayed his trust and he was forced into telling a lie to make other believe that he liked some one that he did not like ... After that incident , boy knows that no one can be trusted and he should keep things to himself no matter how hard it is ... He also knew that he had to make a choice between the two of them ... Because , to him , liking 2 person at a time is unacceptable and he knew that it is wrong ... therefore , he made a choice to chase neither of them or any other girl until he had made up his choice ... however , he already realised that both En and girl likes some one else, at least that was what he thought.... So he avoided both of them , but the problem is that when he tried to do that , he fell deeper in love with both of them ...
This led to anger within him .... an anger that was slowly building up within him... an anger not at anyone else but himself... When no one was around , he cried alone , in his room , when every one else is asleep ... He had no one to turn to , no friends he could trust in his class , friend that were really concerned about him were too busy with their work and he felt bad to trouble his friends... However something good is going to happen to him except that it has nothing much to do with relationships
To be continued
posted at [10:18 PM]
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