Today is such a nice day ... first of all i managed to get down to study ... but then later chat a few hours with debbie , jin le and enning . Talk about a lot of things lor then 10pm go home ... from 12 go until ten.. at least i got some work done at debbie house... tml schedule also booked up liao... morning gym and swimming , afternoon cycling and basketball then after tuition then at night go out with my mum and 2 sis but then... i cant afford to pay for the dinner ... never work part time mah... if only i got an atm card... i would surely help pay too... haiz ... having no money on you is so bad ... this is year is dammed sick... i now expierence what you mean by no money ar.... haiz... so i recently decided that i must earn alot of money in the future .... so thats why im trying to study nowadays .. but , im not a person who can study well ...
just like a person who cant seem to work very hard .. but now i bet with a lot of ppl i will do better than them in o levels ...
So now is bo bian lor must die die work hard ... for myself and for those bets ... hehehe.. think i can never win you guys ? its just that i find it hard for me to find a good challenger ... a good challenger to me is not some one who can study like siao and get very high marks ... a challenger to me is some one who is not obsessed with studying and has the right attitude to every thing lor .. in short a role model lor ... i used to have 1 bah .. in primary school but now .. the people i see around me are just so common , nothing much special in particular ... but i spotted some one with the qualities that i look up to and now i want to outdo that person ... but of course .... I MuSt havE fUn :p
Relationships ... wtf are they ... real love ? To me its a piece of burden bah ... until im sure that i can care for the person in the future and be always there for her ... i will not search for the thing called ' Love ' where it just like a mirage to the ppl around our age ... you think you see it but once you put your hand out and tries to touch it , it disappears into thin air and making you disappointed and sad ... i rather wait till i see something that is real and then i put all my efforts into reaching for it...
Love at first sight ? impossible lar ... its more important to have a person with character ... even though its true that i would notice the good looking ppl first lor ... but even though looks are important , to me its only the first test ... the major one is the attitude and character ... even if im sure that i like that person really really much that i would do anything for her , i would not put my hand out to try to reach for her ... i refuse to let myself get hurt willingly ...
So in short , once i get my studies and friends in place , i would then correct my attitude ... then only i feel myself good enuff for anygirl....
posted at [11:04 PM]
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